Blessed Instinct

 

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It’s been a long time since I posted anything. Hell, it’s been a long time since I wrote anything more than a few scribbles. Granted, I did a bit of artwork here and there, worked on some film projects, and scribbled a few lines of poetry. But no writing of any real substance has flowed in at least…what, a year?

 

I constantly blame work for this. I work at night, and my job is physically demanding. So when I get home in the morning after work, I usually head straight to bed, scroll on social media for a few minutes, and then pass out – more often than not, smacking myself in the face with my phone a few times before placing it safely on the bedside table.

 

But work really has nothing to do with it.  I am a storyteller. I love to create a story that takes you on a ride and then slams on the breaks, and you, not knowing that you should have buckled up, go flying through the windshield as you read the last few paragraphs.

 

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That’s my favorite kind of storytelling.

 

This last year I’ve been inundated with all sorts of other events that have distracted, berated, and ultimately muted my storytelling zest.  I simply did not want to write.

 

I was taught by a rather brilliant English professor that quality over quantity is the best writing…that if you write poetry, you have to value each word at a dollar apiece, and to be frugal with those dollars.

 

I used to be friends with this guy who writes these ego maniacal essays on a daily basis. I suppose they were meant to be funny, or informative, but they came off as being wordy self-serving rants about the same topic: himself.  I guess if I wanted to write things like that I would have kept up with my livejournal diary. Even then, only talking about myself would bore me pretty quickly.  I’d rather write a story and share it with the world and see if others are as shaken up by reading it as I was by writing it.

 

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Instinctively, when I don’t feel the urge to write, I don’t force it.  It’s taken me years to finally accept and to do this. And, though I was alarmed not to have written much of anything this past year, I feel better knowing I didn’t throw countless hours in the trash by tapping out a bunch of nonsensical bullshit that no one (including myself) would want to read.

 

Sometimes it’s best to just shut the fuck up.

 

 

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I learned this by discovering the more I wrote while uninspired, the more my writing fell flat.  I never want my poetry or my stories to be one dimensional cardboard cutout representations of what I can really do when inspired.

So, as difficult as it is for someone with the gift of gab, I learned how to shut the fuck up.

It’s like Roadhouse and the “be nice” theme.  Be nice until its time to stop being nice. Write when it’s time to write.

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Athraxx

 

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